Hey hey, Do you hate how your upbringing and circumstances won’t stop beating you down?

The latest post of my substance “A Year After Surviving” to find out how to continue creating when you’re just tired.

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“How can I make anything of my life when I wake up hating myself for not achieving what I want? How can I move forward when I look in the mirror and my first impulse is still, and always, to see everything I hate and want to fix about myself: physically, attitude-wise, belief-wise, and just all around? How can I ever find success if I can't find the way to see myself as ever being capable of achieving it in any endeavor that I undertake?

I fucking HATE IT!

I hate having to fight through my days, fighting against the high tide of "you're not good enough and you never will be" and "this is wrong because you're doing it" and "nothing you do will ever be enough." I'm so tired...I'm so tired...I'm so tired, and all I have left to give is the repetition of what I've already given.

This is where CPTSD gets me…”